Journey Out of the Body (and Offline)
Part One: 144.72hz Mars Frequency Sleep Music for Masculine Sexual Energy Healing #20117
This is a b-side from our upcoming book, ‘The Lifestyle Zoo.’ This was written during the late Spring of 2021. As an update, I can definitively say that a lot of the Youtube hypnosis things actually work. Who knew? This book will probably come out in the spring, I don’t know.
I don’t want to work out today. I’m depressed. I had three beers because I was depressed yesterday too. Now I’m double depressed. I slept for ten hours probably. I could have continued sleeping if the cat puking didn’t wake me up. I’m depressed because I woke up at 4am to eat leftover campechano tacos and have one cigarette before going back to sleep. I feel like trash. I feel very pointless. I have to go to work in a few hours and I’m too depressed to shower. Too depressed to even jack off! Dear God, what will become of me?
I probably shouldn’t work out. Maybe I can just lay in bed and catch up on the Discord chat from last night. That would be a good way to kill a few hours before a boring Saturday at work. I am so fucking aggravated in my body. I need to eat something. I wish I was smarter and could quit smoking again.
I don’t want to read, my eyes hurt. I know I’m not hungover but I still feel bad. I feel bad because I’m focused on feeling bad. I’m so stupid. I’m such a baby.
I am willing to try anything to ‘feel better’ - in the name of research, of course.
After all, I am the best guinea pig I have available.
I am sitting on my patio and it’s either 86° Fahrenheit or about 30° Celsius, depending on who I’m speaking to. I am drinking instant coffee and listening to a ‘song’ titled 1 HOUR Intense Testosterone HGH Release Binaural Beats + 324 Hz Theta Binaural Beats.
I am reading the testimonial comments on the blog page in which I found this particular ‘song,’ and they each tell of how they can suddenly bench more than ever. They have found their stride in becoming an alpha male.
It’s worth noting that a common question is from ‘allegedly’ FTM trans kids asking if listening to this will help their transition as their parents won’t give them HGH. That sorta makes me depressed.
Okay, I’m deviating. Apparently it’s best to listen to this with headphones as it is primarily a dull droning tone, and if it’s truly binaural – where two different frequencies mesh in and out of phase to the point where your brain creates a third separate signal – then it would make sense to me. It makes sense to me that you would want to listen to this in an isolated manner. It’s also best to listen to this on Tuesdays, as that is the day best aligned with Mars. Ok.
I turn it off and wait until Tuesday.
I have prepared a list of facts about 144.72hz music that I would like to share with you in point form:
144.72hz vibration facilitates sexual healing.
Mars sex frequencies make you more attractive and a better lover.
It helps to support strength of will and increases focus.
All this PLUS a natural testosterone boost? Obviously, this is what I’ve been looking for. I will have to go on a tren cycle later, sure, but these Youtube videos will do for the time being.
It is now Tuesday. The weather is roughly the same as last reported. I went to the gym and then took a bike ride. I am back on my patio but now I am barefoot and drinking peach Perrier. I am starting my afternoon by listening to Get Masculine Sexual Energy from Universe - Male Potency & Libido Healing | Tantric Subliminal Music 144.72hz.
3PM: I am not yet horny.
4PM: Not horny but suddenly tired.
5PM: Not horny but very hungry. I continue listening to this 144.72hz playlist as I putter around my house eating tortilla chips.
6PM: So fucking tired. This music is perhaps helping me achieve zen and calm but I’m just unbearably tired. I’m still listening as I patiently wait for the horny breakthrough to happen.
The playlist continues to Tantric Masculinity – Awaken Male Energy and Sexuality, which reminds me of the music they pump through the pod at the sensory deprivation tank center I go to once a month. Very chime-y. Feels like the phrase ‘new age’ put to a Yamaha synth.
I continue listening only because I feel like changing to any other music will be too jarring to my sensitive disposition. I cook a burger and continue reading on this particular brand of audio therapy. Most people suggest to listen to it as you sleep. It now makes sense to me as to why most of these videos are 8-12 hours long. Obviously this isn’t going to make me horny while I’m reading about Allen Dulles. I was doing it wrong.
I was trying to use this material similarly to how one would listen to one of the Monroe Institute tapes, trying to force a mid-day meditation. I just assumed that this made the most sense seeing as though the hemi-sync recordings designed to produce calm certainly work, at least for me. I wouldn’t be able to fly without Robert Monroe’s commercial successes in marketing binaural beats.
I’m not kidding.
This discover was well before my ‘internet-fueled anti-self-help opus’ was considered. I woke up one morning and was suddenly terrified of flying, which was mildly inconvenient as I worked in a different city than the one I lived in.
So I quit my job and stayed on the ground.
After a few years (years!) I stumbled upon the Monroe Institute while looking up hypnosis for quitting smoking, which is a service they do not offer but I’m glad it showed up in my research regardless. I started listening to the hemi-sync tapes as an alternative to common meditation and I found it reduced my anxiety and kept me moving in a positive manner.
It doesn’t matter how much of this is in my head. It works for me and now I spend entire flights with my eyes closed and the Monroe Institute in my ears and I can do that without taking enough Xanax to kill an up-and-coming rapper.
I suppose these testosterone-tones are only useful if you are completely susceptible to them, therefore I will change my approach to working with them.
(Some time passes)
I am reporting back after spending a week poisoning my nights by listening to dull tones that fry my brain. I cannot say whether or not my testosterone is higher but it certainly helps me get out of bed, if not for anything but to turn the sound off. The audio is soothing but grating – it’s relaxing and frustrating. It seems to cause a dull headache that lingers for most of the morning until I’ve spent an hour listening to anything else.
I try jacking off in the morning but my dick feels depressed. Maybe this music is a psyop to actually kill the adult male penis. Have I brainwashed my regular penis into betraying me?
Maybe I’ve programmed my penis into a Manchurian candidate that cums inside of women when it hears the trigger phrase, ‘on me not in me.’
I have decided to abandon this research as nothing valuable has been gained or learned.
I am reminded of a quote from a Monroe Institute rep that I have printed above my desk - “You're free to test everything… keeping what resonates with you and discarding the things that do not.”
But this thinking lead me to hard drugs and heavy drinking, so perhaps don’t do what I did.